121212

The 12th of December 2012.

12.12.12 as they say.

It's a special day for couples, perhaps.

I'm single.

After being dumped.

And u're probably chatting with other girls right now.

Wishing them Happy 121212.

Or maybe worse, u confess your feelings to other girl!

Yes, I miss u.

But I'm trying not to care anymore.

I'm trying.

I'm trying.

And I'm trying.

:(

犯贱的女生

结束了。
总共十天。
最短的一次。
这次，我又再次犯贱了。
死缠烂打。
听了朋友这么一说，我后悔我昨天对你说的话了。
作为女生，我真的很cheap。
不得不承认。
算了。
过去了。
需要时间来平伏我的心情。
不管你以后还会不会理我。
不管你会不会觉得我很恶心。
还是，算了吧。
不能容许我以后再犯同样的错误了。
哭过，伤痕就会很快恢复。
希望以后，不会再遇上错的人。
你说过，就算世界末日，我还有你。
很甜。
只是，我没对你说过。
不过现在，没了。
那天，你对我说的话，无论是不是真心的，我都没忘记。
只是我不想再去回想。
你不会知道我写了这番话。
不过，我们还是一起加油吧！
未来的世界会很美好。
我们都还年轻。
我祝福你。
如果世界末日真的到了，我想告诉你，我爱你。

朋友

跟你在一起的时候，感觉很轻松。
我觉得很快乐。
即使见不到你，有你陪我聊天，心里就会安心了。
这种感觉，很特别。
也很舒服。
从来没有人给到我这份感觉。
不清楚你是否也对我有一样的感觉。
不过，我想，你应该发觉到我对你的那份感觉吧。
你只是不闻不问。
也许，这只是友情。
也许，这是我对你的爱情。
但我清楚地知道，我们不可能。
恋人，没有我的份。

我很贪玩。
我说过我爱你。
其实我并不是在开玩笑。
你不相信我。
可能，你只是半信半疑。

不过，没关系。
我们就做好朋友吧。
希望你可以守护在我身边。
友情，比爱情来得更长久。
我祝福你幸福快乐。
你，也别再那么贪玩了。
:)

You

I'm happy when I'm with u.

I feel safe with u.

When my mood is down, I will feel delighted again when ur around to talk to me.

U brighten up my day whenever I feel like crying out loud deep inside.

We may not meant to be.

But, can u please, just stay with me and be my good friend and never leave me alone.

Cause I need u so much. 

:)

久违了。。。
这个发霉的部落格。
终于上了第一天的大学。
感觉上还好吧。
大多数人都很友善。
感觉还是怪怪的。
工作上遇到了问题。
能怪谁？
怪自己吧。
很烦。
真的很烦。
太多事情要烦。
真的很压力。
很想放声大哭。
却不可以。
哭，就代表我弱。
所以，绝不能哭。
哭，就代表我认输了。
所以，不能哭。
烦恼跟谁讲？
连我也不了解我自己。
睡个觉，也许会好受点吧。

Decisions makings are always hard

So I got an offer for Bachelor in Human Resource Management from University Utara Malaysia.
And to my surprise, this course was one of my 12 choices in my application.
I didn't even know it until I referred back to my application form.
But I don't think I will be going anyway.
The class is gonna start on the 3rd of September.
The university is located somewhere far away from the town, I guess, and it is very near to Thailand.
So, since I'm not going there, I have to start deciding what degree course that I wanna take.
I have interest in psychology, so my sis asked me to take the double major course in Segi University College.
I had already made my decision to take up Psychology and Management courses.
But then, I thought about law.
A course that my parents have always wanted me to study and which I had aimed for in most of my choices in my IPTA application, though I didn't develop much interest in it at that time.
But then, I thought about taking law as my degree course.
And a few days ago, I was flipping through a law book in MPH.
I didn't even know what the contents that I was reading were about.
I realized that my English level must be real good and I must have much interest in law in order for me to understand law and pass my law exam.
Then Alex asked me to study IT or web design courses.
Now, I am in a big big dilemma.
Psychology double major? Law? or Computing with multimedia?
Or should I just go to UUM instead?
Aww.
This is hard.
Most probably the hardest decision that I have to make.
:((

我原来还没放下。
但花会谢，人会变。
我相信，有一天，我的心也会死的。